So that you don't even need me.....

Hello my beautiful goddess of wisdom and warcraft!!!
You are a little under the weather. I usually write you at night once you have officially left me and gone with the sandman. But today you are sitting next to me watching Babty Einsteins Baby's First Sounds and since you are completely and totally enthralled by it I thought I would write a quick post today to share with you a poem I had completely forgotten about until I grabbed all my quote books and started flipping through them.

Daughter

By: Nicole Blackwell

One day I'll give birth to a tiny baby girl

And when she's born she'll scream

and I'll make sure she never stops.

I will kiss her before I lay down and tell her a story

So she knows how it is and how it must be 

For her to survive

I'll tell her about the power of water

the seduction of paper

the promise of gasoline

and the hope of blood

I'll teach her to shave her eyebrows and mark her skin

I'll teach her that her body is her greatest work of art.

I'll tell her to light things on fire and keep them burning

I'll teach her that the fire will not consume her, 

that she must take it and use it.

I'll tell her to be tri-sexual, try anything, to sleep with, 

fight with, pray with anyone, just as long as she 

FEELS SOMETHING. I'll tell her to do her best work 

when it rains. I'll tell her to reinvent herself every 28 days.

I'll teach her to develop all her selves.

The courageous ones,

The smart ones, 

The dreaming ones, 

The fast ones, 

I'll teach her that she has an army inside her

that can save her life.

I'll tell her to say FUCK like people say THE

And when people are shocked to ask them 

why they so fear a small quartet of letters.

I'll make sure she carries a pen so she can take down the evidence.

If she has no paper, I'll teach her to write everything down on her tongue

write it on her thighs.

I'll help her see that she WILL NOT find God 

or salvation in a dark brick building

built by dead men.

I'll explain to her it's better to regret the things she has done

than the things she hasn't. I'll teach her to write her manifestos 

on cocktail napkins.

I'll say she should make them lick her enterprise.

I'll teach her to talk hard.

I'll tell her that her skin is the MOST BEAUTIFUL dress

she will EVER wear.

I'll tell her that people must earn the right 

to use her nickname, that forced intimacy is an UGLY thing.

I'll MAKE her UNDERSTAND the she is 

worth far more with her clothes ON!

I'll tell her that when the words finally flow too fast, 

and she has no use for a pen, that she must quit her job, 

run out of the house in her bathrobe, leaving the door open.

I'll teach her to follow the words.

I'll tell her to stand up and head for the door

after she makes love. When he asks her to stay

she'll say she's got to go.

I'll tell her that when 

she first bleeds

When she is a woman, 

to go up to the roof at midnight, reach her hands up to the sky, 

AND SCREEEEEEAAAAAAMMMMM!!!!

I'll teach her to be whole, to be holy, to be so much more

that she doesn't even NEED me anymore.

I'll tell her to go quickly and never come back.

I will make her stronger than me.

I'll say to her never forget what they did to you

and never let them know you remember.

Wow. That is some powerful S@#%!  I remember reading that poem and transferring it from one of my friend's quote books to mine thinking, " Man if I ever have a daughter......" And now my dear I have you and I just can't wait to share with you everything that has come to me in my life. I am so excited. I will pray everyday that you are with me for the rest of my life and yours so that I may pass onto you all of my knowledge and then some. Here's hoping you absorb it all and put it to use so that you don't even need me anymore. No totally kidding, I want you to always want and need me. I love you mamin